Sun, Oct. 4th, 2009, 02:07 pm
everyone is living a life
so bright in fact, i'm begging for rain. rain would fit my mood in just that perfect way. that silent-as-a-whisper sort of way. i want to photograph the world and put the picture in a box. everything on the face of the planet would be in that picture but you couldn't see it and no one would know that one microsliver of their life had been forever captured in one perfect synergistic photograph of the world. Countless lives, thoughts, actions, all there and, ironically, all invisible.
Sat, Nov. 11th, 2006, 10:23 pm
i realize i like messy. i realize that i've spent so much time trying to keep it clean, organized, simple. but life isn't simple and i'm not simple. there's a stigma around complexity, especially when it comes to people. why? everyone is a mess, they just don't realize it, lol. i like my mess. i like staying up late and waking up with smudged mascara. i like eating candy bars for breakfast and existing on a diet of caffinated beverages. i like having a million things to do and no time to them. i like excess and i like clutter. i don't care if i understand life and i don't care if i'm not in control. at least, not today :)
Sun, Nov. 5th, 2006, 07:31 pm
has anybody else done laundry and forgotten to add soap?
1)lucky charms..CHOCOLATE lucky charms.. how great is that
2)Acqua Di Gio by giorgio armani. i don't care if it's for men, this scent rocks my socks.
4)& the garden state soundtrack
5)starbucks venti chai latte. :D
6)dried flowers (kudos to aaron and andrew ;))
7)crazy customers who throw things at people(this is more of a love/hate relationship actually)
8)hemp chanvre lip balm :)
10)staying up as late as i can
11)and watching all the random indie/foreign movies that only come on that late ^v^
12)writing letters and getting them lost in the mail. that's two so far...
mm my lj looks so naked. i should add some frnds but uh i feel kinda weird nothing says stalker like going through strangers' profiles and sending them msgs. creepy. everyone should listen to stalker by goldfinger, that is truly priceless. yay who loves fruit loops.
on that note, why hate emo kids when you can hate 'scene' kids? seriously, who buys into the whole contrived myspace, ipod junkie, guitar playing, converse wearing, youth subculture of america more than scene kids? wow, i really just generalized there, my bad ^^
Wed, Jun. 21st, 2006, 11:30 pm
blah i just spent the last ten minutes trying to upload a profile pic. i failed. haha oh well.
i just graduated highschool and i can't get over this crazy feeling that i've lost something important. it's kind of like this is the culmination of everything i've lost, gained, and left behind, and now none of it means anything because it's time for me to move on and start building my own life. but i don't embrace change as well as i should; i'm still holding on to who i was three lives ago. where do you start when it feels like the past won't let go? Am i really this afraid to accept the changes i see in myself and my life? when everyone else around me seems to know who they are and what they want, i'm left feeling like i'm all over the place, trying on different identites for size and it makes it hard to take myself seriously. "i would love..just to be able to say, 'Yes, this is my style, and this is who I am'" but maybe being different people every day is just where i am at right now, and maybe i'm learning to be ok with that finally :)